Opening up about her recent hospitalization following a medication overdose, Fantasia Barrino confesses that she was looking for a way out.
Talking with VH1's Behind the Music in an episode airing Tuesday (August 24) at 9PM ET/PT, she said, "I didn't have any fight in me. I didn't care about anything. I just wanted out."
With the incident happening as she promotes her new album Back to Me, Fantasia continues, "At that moment, I wanted out. I wanted it to be over with – all of it, all of that [expletive]. I just sat in the closet and looked at the mirror and took all the pills in the bottle. I wanted to go to sleep and just be at peace. I knew exactly what I was doing. You can't accidentally take a whole bottle of pills."
Meanwhile, Miss Barrino's manager, Brian Dickens, spoke of finding Fantasia on the floor, saying, "Her emotions were extremely low. She'd been crying all day. Fantasia was just numb. Fantasia texted me, saying 'I love you.' I wrote back, 'I love you more.' Then it hit me. I wrote, 'You better not do anything or think about doing anything stupid.' And I left it at that. About 10 minutes later, Fantasia texted me back, and she said, 'Already did.' I went into Fantasia's room and saw her on the floor, and my heart just dropped."
As for the reason behind her near life-ending decision, the 28-year-old tells, "I was tired of people doing me wrong, constantly, over and over again, dealing with my family – my father, dealing with men and their [expletive] – I was tired. My head was hurting me. I was over it."